My Choice.

I have allowed myself a moment of weakness....a moment to panic, and consume myself with fear. I cried, and screamed, and begged for an answer.

Waiting for weeks...well it just seems like cruel punishment....

BUT, I have had my moment of indulgence. I allowed myself to crumble under the pressure. I don't do pressure well. Some of you who know me in "real life" probably know that about me. I hate pressure, I don't do well with it. I am a little bit fragile.

I have made a choice. I am going to willingly accept the path that God made for Reagan. *MY* plan includes Reagan being perfectly fine, and the doctor in Philadelphia to tell me that all of this was an exaggeration by our doctor here in Erie, and that she will be OK. I am PRAYING that this is also what God has in mind....

But....there is a good chance that is NOT what God has in mind, and in fact Reagan may need a very delicate procedure/surgery done. I am willing to accept any path that God leads us down. I may not understand the path....but I will go down it. AND I will praise Him during the journey.

Until I get the results, I will be focusing on the children. I will bring my concerns to you because I believe in the healing power of prayer....but I will try not to focus on the issues we are facing right now. Not until I have some real answers to focus on.

I want to thank you from the BOTTOM of my heart for your prayers, and I ask that you continue to pray. Pray for healing, and serenity.

“My soul, wait silently for God alone,
For my expectation is from Him.
He only is my rock and my salvation;
He is my defense;
I shall not be moved.
In God is my salvation and my glory;
The rock of my strength,
And my refuge, is in God.
Trust in Him at all times, you people;
Pour out your heart before Him;
God is a refuge for us."
Psalm 62:5-8