April 6, 2009

In Search of Spiritual caffeine....

Josh is working a lot more now than he ever has. It's good, and it's bad. He's had to work much harder to find sales lately...effect of the economy I suppose. This means that the rest of it has been 100% on me. It's fine, I mean....I signed up for this. I have to say, I am starting to run out of gas. My tank is 1/8 full. We are heading for the red dinging light where the car screams "BUY ME SOME STINKING GAS!!!!"

I run Reagan to school. I pick her up (except the one day a week that my friend so willingly brings her home....HUGE HELP!!!!! Thanks!!!).

Joel has weekly therapy appointments. He has many doctor appointments. Next appointment is with the dermatologist for his random rashes....yippie.

I am still changing 21 diapers, making 3 meals, and 2 snacks.

Addison always seems to be sticky, it's her I am constantly wiping her up.

Joel has a runny nose 24/7 (I am sure it's allergies at this point).

Delaney has discovered her LOVELY screeching voice and is screeching almost constantly during the day.

Joel screams at the top of his lungs and pounds his head into the floor, nothing soothes him...this is still a profound mystery.

I feel like Addie is being left out, because she has no LOUD habits that require my attention....sans climbing the couch and baby gates.

Ethan is 4 and wants me to play with him all day long, which in turn gives me indigestion from the mother guilt that I feel when I have to turn him down....("Not now Ethan, I am sorry....but the babies all pooped in unison again!").

The worst part is that I feel like I am missing out on the best part of Reagan and Ethan's childhood. They are SO MUCH FUN right now, and my attention is often diverted to the babies. (Have I ever told you how much fun I think 4 and 5 year olds are??? Seriously, I LOVE this age!) Don't misunderstand what I say....I LOVE the triplets.
I would never take back a moment of their lives, I just wish there were 2 of me. One for the babies, one for Reagan and Ethan.
I am feeling some Mommy burn-out. What I NEED to do is buckle down and make more time for my devotional life. I need God to give me some spiritual caffeine. I DO devotions, I read my Bible. The problem is that I am not scheduling myself enough time. It's all in the scheduling. ::sigh:: If only I could read the Bible in the shower...... (just kidding!)



I cannot imagine your stresses. Oh and that pic of the squirrel, ewwwww. I HATE squirrels.


Even though each person's situation is unique, I can completely relate! I think that the stress and concern adds an additional emotional aspect that weighs on you.
It seems that we spend all of our time at dr's appts too. I was just telling someone today how thankful I am for kid #3 (who goes with me to all of kid #4's appts); without him there, I think that it would overwhelm me. He keeps it in perspective for me.
I have felt this past year that I was in a spiritual wasteland. My "New Year's Resolution" (?) was to spend more time with God. I resolved to read my Bible more. It's been hard...


Wow, you definitely have your hands full. I pray that you get to spend some time with the big kids and that the triplets stop pooping in unison, lol.


I have the same problem with mommy guilt (and the indigestion it brings) when I have to tell my 5 and 3 year old that we can't do something right now because the 1 year old is up and she'll get into it or she's cranky and wants to be held...nonstop. I can not even fathom your days. My 3 year old and now 1 year old also have some high quality screeching voices that they like to test in unison...especially in the car. Hmmmm, that reminds me...where did I put those ear plugs? (just kidding) :)

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